Radical Update

The post tonight is short.  I'm not feeling well today.  My throat is scratchy and has that hot, burning feeling.  It's not sore, just irritated, but it makes me cough and I'm just worn out.

So, I thought I'd do the Radical Update for this week.  I have two areas proving to be my Achilles heel.  One is weak and the other undone.  Weakness - prayer.  Now this really shouldn't be so hard.  I mean I have the opportunity to talk to the God of the universe and I can't seem to get myself to the point where I can do it regularly.  On the days I pray, I feel so much better all day.  Monday was an example.  Monday, despite the storms, was a great day from a mental peace standpoint.  I got up and read my Bible, got ready for work, and then prayed for about 30 minutes.  Yesterday and today, I  couldn't get going.  All I managed was to read my Bible lesson.  And, of course, I'm supposed to be focusing on the world in my prayer too.  China is this week.  I hope the Chinese aren't expecting a miracle to come through me because so far they're not on the prayer radar.

What has distracted me?  Rebellion and illness come to mind.  Who suffers because I don't make time to pray?  Me. 

The second area is multiplying my community.  I have no idea what to do.  Literally, nothing has come to mind and I don't feel the Lord has indicated anything to do, or even the people to do whatever "it" is with.  At least I have made attempts to pray, but this eludes me.

I'm reminded of what Paul wrote in Romans 7:15, "I do not understand what I do.  For what I want to do I do not do, but what I hate I do."

I want a real relationship with the Lord, not one that is all about me running to Him when I need something and hiding when I don't.  I want to talk to Him regularly, but I don't do it. 

Therefore, I will conclude tonight by saying I will strive to do better so that I may report progress in my next update.